Help Me Understand

I've been reflecting a bit about some of the tendencies that we have as women when our hearts are unconverted. We become strange, we become the strange woman. Why is it that we hate each other so much as women? Why are we so intent on breaking each other? What do we gain from all of this? What do you gain when another women is hurting? How can her pain bring happiness to you? How is her pain or flaw making you better as a Christian?

Furthermore, what is about men that makes us so willing to sacrifice ourselves, values & our relationship with God? Why? I pray God gives us the eye salve. I pray He reminds us that anything besides Him is a 'broken cistern' with no substance. I pray God help us to desire Him and no else.

May this be our deepest longing:

Whom have I in heaven but thee? and there is none upon earth that I desire beside thee.-Psalm 73:25

14 For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ,

15 Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named,

16 That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man;

17 That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,

18 May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;

19 And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.-Ephesians 3:14-19

AUGUST:WOMEN'S MONTH

I am falling inlove with August :).I was spiritually born on the 11th of August and some sisters that I hold dear were born this month.Not only so,it has a significance in South Africa.

On the 9th of August 1956, about 20 000 women from diffrent races marched to the Union Buildings with about 10 000 petitions against the "pass law".Sixty years later, here am I,free to move around without my dompas (Identification Document).Here am I with the freedom to go from one place to another without the fear tof being stopped by a white policeman.This is an example of what happens when women unite.

We no longer have these laws but there are still many issues that need women-women of all ages
.Like the little girl wearing the same clothes because she has none.
Like the little child who has fallen and is crying
Like the young girl who has no goals in life
Like the young boy who's being bullied
Like the young boy who's facing peer pressure
Like the young girl who finds herself pregnant,confused,and alone
Like the youg people who find themselves bound by lust,addiction,and more
Like the young children who know nothing about God and how much He loves them
Like the granny who needs her house to be cleaned and food to eat
I can go on and on

As a Christian woman I have duty to God and mankind-not only on special occasions.But the truth is,at times I've left my post unattended.One thing that still tears my heart is the fact that even with an increase in condoms and contraceptives,teenage pregnancy is still on the rise.It goes on to show that the problem is not with pregnancy,but it's an underlying  cause and indeed this is a societal issue.

Whenever a young girl I know falls pregnant,I always ask myself:where was I?Had I availed myself would this still be the case?Had I availed my case would she still need a validation from the male that she is loved,beautiful,and more?Had I availed myself would she continued in the way leading to death?Had I been accepting would she come and tell me what's on her mind or what is it that's bothering her?Had I been more focused on others than myself?

I realize now that the issue is that we have not opened a safe space where we can just open up to each other.A space where no-one is trying to be holy.But a space where we can meet,talk about our struggles,advise each other,read God's Word for counsel and continue from there.But this is not possible without accepting others and loving one another-aspects I really need to work on since I tend to be rigid minded and have all these  childish expectations but God is helping.

Can we make the gospel personal,because it is!It cuts through the darkest corners.I wish we could just have a month where we just use the Sabbath to meet as sisters and just talk.Not talk about the beast,the sanctuary,but talk about who God is,how He loves us and how He sees us and from that understanding,we can go on to prepare to meet Him.I mean,what's the point of talking about Jesus' coming when we still do not have victory over things which may seem like nothing?

So,like One Sister told me of her dream to have Friday sessions with other women just talking about real issues and counselling and learning together,I'm for it.I mean,what's the point of us going to church while still slaves to sin and us putting up religious faces?I'm not saying we should stop going to church,I'm saying let's be real.Real in the sense that we are sinning and we need strength and we need to hear how others overcame and have been saved from making certain mistakes.Less sermonizing and more teaching and praying.

Thankful for Godly Sisters

For some time,I had concluded that sisters were not as spiritual;since whenever we engaged it would be rare to engage on spiritual matters.Or maybe I was the problem now that I think of it.Fast forward to 2015,I meet a sister who only speaks about God and I always learnt something from her.Sadly,she left Cape Town.Then God blessed me with a friend and we also started studying the Bible at church and I was always blessed and still am whenever I engage with her.

And ever since,I've met a lot of sisters who love God and who have a true experience with God.But yesterday was an exception!An exception because I learned a lot of spiritual lessons and I was encouraged to take my cross again and follow Jesus.

So,we gathered to go do a health expo at Nyanga and while we waited,we spoke about certain issues that where bothering us in our spiritul walk.

One thing that came out was the compromise of principles within the church.But we also learnt that we have a responsibility to do something whenever we see a problem.There's no use complaining about how the pastors are worldly or this or that.The question is,what are we actually doing about the whole issue?Are we praying about it,are going with a Christ-like mind to show those that are off path?

I also learnt that it's important that we always have the mind of Christ-to mingle justice and mercy.Often,we always want to bash out those we see doing wrong.But do we take the time to see the motive behind whatever they are doing?Some people may have motives,but they may have no idea how to go about something.Also ignorance plays a big role.

I also learnt that it's important to consider other people's temperaments when engaging with them.Glad a sister pointed this out.As a melancholic I tend to want things to be done a certain way,which is how I view it and whenever this is not so,I struggle.But I'm learning that-if it is God's way and in line with His Word,then it is okay since God is infallible and it is all about Him at the end.

I also learnt that you cannot evangelise someone who's broken,without first trying to get at the root of the problem.Often these souls just want kindness,care and us showing them that we are there for them-since they often build a barrier to protect themselves.

AND LASTLY,my facourite theme:individuality!!!!!We can all be principled Christians without mimicing each other and that's perfectly fine.The Holy Spirit is working to perfect us in own personalities!

On the downside,as SDA sisters we are still unfriendly.Many visitors are being neglected while we stand in our cliques...We are not to forget to "entertain visitors".It is a Christian duty!

But I'm blessed.I am encouraged.I am thankful for sisters who choose Christ.